Jake's First Day of Kindergarten

We got up and got ready for Jake's first day of Kindergarten. Of course we were late, but we made it. When I let go of Jake's hand there was no looking back. I watched him run excitedly to meet his classmates in line. His smile was huge as he waited to go inside the classroom. I sat there and had no clue what to do. So, I cried. Not a little cry I sobbed like a big baby. Yes, I was pregnant and I did blame it on the hormones...but in all honesty I am sure I would have done that pregnant or not. A mom handed me a tissue and put her arm around me. I didn't know if I should just grab her and sob into her shoulder or just keep looking forward. I did the later of the two. I watched Jake leave with his class and I just said a prayer for him and me that we could make it through this change. And we did and are. When I left the parking lot to go to van I looked for Jake and put my hand out to grab his, a mom habit. It was weird and totally caught me off guard. There was no one behind me. I started to cry harder. I was a mess. I didn't realize how hard it was for Luke and Cole until the day progressed. They kept asking when Jake was coming home and when it was raining outside they were stressed that Jake would get cold, and at lunch they blessed the food and Jake. That first night when Jake got home we all were so excited to have him back. They all played hard together to make up for lost time during the day. And that night Jake asked if he could sleep with his brothers. They all fell asleep in each others arms it was the cutest thing. It didn't take long for them all to fall fast asleep, especially Jake he was exhausted. We had Jake with drawls for about 2 weeks. It was a weird adjustment. I happy for Jake and all that he has done, but I just wish I could rewind time and do all of it over again. It has gone by fast and just seems to keep getting faster.